who am i without you?
every time i make a move in that direction;
to individuate, establish myself
apart from you,
my efforts are thwarted, sabotaged,
come to naught.
the universe is adamant that i belong to you.
that my path is lit by the beacon
of your heart.
that my direction is that which you lead me in.
so not me.
difficult to swallow,
my pride is KILLING ME in this moment.
it will kill me if i hold on to it.
i want so badly to call the shots.
lead the band,
strategize and plan,
get you ahead of the game,
on my terms, on my time frame,
with my effort,
so maybe then it will be MY victory.
not yours.
after all you've been through.
how could i?
do i have the guts to get off the
road of Good Intentions?
do i have the humility to be
behind the scenes?
can i allow my glory to come from
a source that's silent,
my praises whispered by angels?
